I did it!
I completed my 12 week health coaching program as a client. It’s the first time I’ve ever stuck to some sort of “health” thing for so long, and that in itself is amazing. Usually, I’m a do-it-for-two-weeks-and-then-fall-off-the-bandwagon kind of girl.
When I say that this is truly a lifestyle change, this isn’t a joke. I know that “lifestyle change” gets thrown around a lot and can sometimes make you roll your eyes a bit, but this program has changed my life. I operate in a new way, and it is FANTASTIC!
I’ll be up front here: I don’t know if I lost any weight. Halfway through the program, I tucked my scale away. It didn’t work for me; it wasn’t good for my mental well-being. I also didn’t have a lot of weight to lose in the first place. I don’t have any drastic before and after pictures to show you. However, I do have my top 3 non-scale victories to share:
1. I am not powerless to food. Diet and exercise used to control my life. I would stress about what I was putting into my body, how many calories were in it, how many grams of carbs, how would it fit my macros, what did I eat yesterday, did I need to change how I ate today… it was exhausting. My mind never had room for much else. Now, food and exercise are important parts of my life, but they don’t dominate my headspace. I pick the foods that my body needs, enjoy them, and move on. This lets me focus on my family, friends, husband, business, and all the other things in my life that had always come secondary to my obsession with diet. I feel so much healthier now, both physically and mentally. (Whole foods based diet for the win!)
2. I exercise now because I WANT to. Exercise used to be a chore for me. It was two-fold: I was impatient for results, and I lacked energy most of the time. When I started to nourish my body the way that works best for ME and not based on anyone else’s guidelines or mold, my energy peaked, and I started exercising because it felt good. I found a love for spin class which was HUGE considering the fact that cardio used to be a curse word for me. I also signed up for three 5K’s and just started doing the Bikini Body Challenge – because I WANT to, not because I want to change who I am or how I look for feel like I have to. Exercise is now just a habit, and an activity I finally look forward to.
3. I’m learning to love my body no matter what it looks like, and treat myself with the respect I deserve. I’d be lying if I told you that whenever I looked in the mirror it was with nothing but love. I’ll also admit that I still struggle taking pictures of myself, hence the lack of photos here on my blog. However, I am in a much better place than I was 3 months ago. Then, I would stand naked before my shower, pinching my belly and hips, scrutinizing every dimple or roll I had in a variety of postures. Sometimes, I was so disgusted, that I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror. I wouldn’t do my hair or my makeup very often (which for those who know me, is a HUGE change), because thinking about having to look at myself for that period of time felt selfish and made me uneasy. One of the most healing things I did for myself was an exercise through this program, where you are to look at yourself in the mirror for 10 minutes, and out loud, say, “I love you.” You can repeat it over and over again, but you have to stay there for 10 minutes. I know it sounds silly, but if you want to experience something powerful, suck it up and do it. I put my own twist on this exercise, and also thought about all of the positive things about myself. I told myself I was kind. I was smart. I was beautiful and caring. I had an amazing work ethic. I was pretty when I laughed. And I had a good cry-sesh there for a few minutes by myself, but it was healing. I know this may sound absolutely nuts and out there, but if you do this exercise and let go of any preconceived thoughts or judgments or hesitations, I promise that if you are anything like me, you will benefit from this.
Investing in this health coaching program was without a doubt one of the best decisions I’ve made, and I’m excited to begin a career where I can share it with you. If you’re interested in the program, please feel free to email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. Your first session is absolutely free, and will give you an idea of what is in store for you for the next 90 days, whether or not you choose to work with me at this time.